Loooong Update

Here I am, on a Tuesday morning at 1:39 writing this. I got back from an incredible and life changing mission experience a few days ago. I am currently doing VBS with my church which is going swimmingly. Back to Passport.

Passport is a very great mission camp, it focuses not only on doing to mission but also how we can go back into our community and make a change which to me is incredible. It's a week long thing, and boy does that week go bye fast!

As most of you know I've always been a church kid minus a few years where I was lost. I sit here in tears writing this because I can feel God with me. I felt him all week at camp, but hugely on the last day. See, I have grown a lot within the last year alone. I've grown in my faith more than I ever imagined. With that being said I feel like my life has been changed. I feel as if the direction of my life I thought I was being lead down is no longer right, I feel like I'm being lead into ministry. I don't know how to explain it. I truly don't. I feel as if God wants me to do both of these things. He wants me to go into medicine but he also wants me in ministry. I feel like He has completely flipped my life. At some points I wish He could call me up and be like, "Yo girl, I'm gonna send you this this and this, and you can expect this bump and that hurdle but everything will work out. But, I know that's not how God works. It just isn't.

For now I think I'm gonna end this post. I'll try to post more and also share a little more of my spiritual journey.

Your sister in Christ,

Cameron-Elizabeth

Do you remember the first time God felt real to you?

I have always felt God with me. I've felt him for my whole life. I knew he was real. There really isn't one set moment where I just felt God with me, and I had faith. I've always had faith but there have been key moments that made me believe even more.

Over the summer I went to a mission camp with Bre, and a few other friends. The last day of this mission trip I felt God with me, more then I think I ever have before. We were at the closing ceremony and Bre and I were next to each other. We started singing our songs, and we said a prayer. During the prayer we held hands with the people next to us. The whole room did it. After we prayed I herd Bre sniffle a little. I thought absolutely nothing of it. We started another song. Bre reached his hand out for mine, and of course I held it. I felt like I was going to cry. I felt like God was there with me, almost telling me it was ok to cry. I squeezed Bre's hand. He squeezed it back. I sniffled a little and tried to hold back the tears. I looked up at Bre and saw him with tears running down his face. I broke down. Everything I had been holding back that week came out. Bre let go of my hand and wrapped his arm around me. I rubbed his back, and he rubbed mine. I felt God that whole week, but somehow I was overwhelmed with his glory. I was over whelmed by the presence he had in that room. Another reason I think I broke down was because that was the last youth trip I will ever have with Bre. I know that God has a plan for him and for me, but it's hard to see the plan before it happens. I felt God then, and I feel him as I write this blog post. I know I'll look back on this in a few years and probably cry. It's important to share.

God puts people into our lives for reasons that we don't know when they come to us. Bre was put into my life to strengthen my faith. As was Ray. Both of them have strengthened my faith so much more then I could have ever imagined. I love them both so much, and am so thankful for them. I hope each and everyone has some one like Bre or Ray in your lives. No matter what faith you are.

Your sister in Christ,
Cameron-Elizabeth