Lanauge

Ehi!

I love foreign languages. I have this weird fascination with it. Not the common ones like French or Spanish. Well I do like those, but not the point. I like languages that most people don't learn, like German or Italian. I someday want to travel the world with my dad. I want to be able to pay for us to go anywhere. I have this weird thing with money. I'm not greedy, but I'm afraid of not having enough. The point my family is at right now is the breaking point. We are always at each others throats. Whether its about money or food or what ever. But some how my dad and I have this alliance kind of. Its cool. But were by far are not the poorest people in the world. But at the same time we are no longer in the middle class. Yes we struggle alot. But there is always this unspoken alliance between my dad and I. Its nice. So I fill my time with learning foreign languages. This way when my dad and I travel the world I will be able to speak to people. I need that, I know that's weird. But I need that little sliver of hope that there is a chance my dad and I can be happy. Right now at this moment I am not happy what so ever. My dad and I are able to get through this though. I am most definitely a daddy's girl. No dought about it. So my dad and I are hoping in the next few years to go to Germany. I am not fluent enough to speak to anyone, but I am trying. So that is something I have to look forward to. I also want to travel to Italy, I have a little fund set up, where all the money I get for Christmas or my birthday goes. This is my traveling fund. At the moment there is not alot in it, but enough to get started. I enjoy planing theses trips. When we go to Germany I want to visit Cologne Cathedral I also want to see The Black Forest. When we go to Italy in want to see all the big cities, like Rome, Venice, Florence, Milan and Naples. I already know what im going to where! Im so strange!

Cameron-Elizabeth

How about now?

Hallo!

I do like learning foreign lanagues. So right now I'm in the prosses of learning how to say hello/hey in 15 different lanagues. I know weird. But it fills my time. I like it. So let me tell you the ones I know, Spanish, Lithuanian, Italian, English, ASL, German, I think that all of them. Yea, so I was trying to tell my friend all of them the other day. She kept saying, "in a minute", 5 minutes later. "Can I tell you know?", "Hold on", "How bout now?", "Just wait". This went on for a good half hour. Which makes me wonder, why was I waiting? Why didn't I just go find someone else to tell this to? How about I don't wait. So how bout now? Is now OK? Or is your life too important to take 3 minutes out of your day to listen to me?

My asthma has been getting pretty bad lately due to the cold. So I stayed home yesterday, which did really help. I feel really bad right now. I have a problem with telling my dad, or anybody I don't feel good. I don't like having people help me and them thinking, "oh Cameron's sick maybe she shouldn't do this" I hate that. I have a problem telling my dad because he has been through so much I feel like I'm complaining about a stubbed toe. I feel like when I complain people look at me differentially, like I'm weak. I want to make sure everyone knows I'm not weak. I will not let others help me. That is a problem I have that I need to let go of. When my arm was in a sling a few years ago of course this girl was still outside with her brother fixing the house. Yea not a good idea. So how about I start trying to let people help? That's just me. I like that about me. So the other day I was walking outside with my friend and she wanted to run, which I was fine with. But of course the girl I was with just blurts out, "I'm sorry you cant run". OK, that aggravated me just a little bit. I can run, its not the greatest idea right now. But I can.

Cameron-Elizabeth