I am a big church kid as all of you know. My faith is one of the few things that keeps me going. I know that no matter what, God loves me! However, I have been having issues that are hard to discuss at church, because they involve church.
My youth group is made out of phenomenal kids that I love to death and would do anything for. These guys mean the world to me and I would take a bullet for almost any of them. One of my main problems right now is that Bre is no longer there. We were and still are best friends, but youth is crumbling without him. Our youth pastor started Revelation with us, I enjoyed doing that with Bre. When he left, we didn't know what to do, we were lost. We never finished that book because our youth guy didn't want to. Ok, fine, new book of the Bible. No, that didn't happen. We started reading a book by Shane Claiborne. It is a great book and I would recommend it because I read all of it on my own time. However, he doesn't plan on finishing this either. My other problem is that we are no longer doing mission work. Missions and things like that are my life and something I NEED! We just stopped.
I go to big church every Sunday. I have talked to Bre and he understands my frustration. I left a church with a great youth past (one I still talk to weekly) because of the kids. Now I'm at a church with great kids and a horrible youth pastor. It makes me want to cry. Thinking that I might leave my best friends because I'm just not getting what I need. I really don't know what to do.
I have talked to our actual pastor and he talked to our youth pastor. When that happened I was glared at all of church that Sunday. That Sunday was bad to begin with. My knee and shoulder were bothering in, I was in a crap ton of pain and wanted to cry. Church ended and I looked at Bre and he grabbed me and pulled me out of church before I could say anything. Our regular pastor has tried to change things, but its not working and no one wants to take the step that needs to be taken. I understand that, but you need to look at what's best for the youth, not the guy running it. I don't know what I'm gonna do.
Any way, I'm sorry I haven't been on a lot. I've had a crazy amount of work from school. (Who knew taking 3 AP classes would be hard? Ha-ha.) Let me talk about that for a moment. My youth friends and I try our hardest to help each other with our homework, but being the oldest and in super advanced classes means I'm helping everyone else. I missed a few days and am sick right now, but we have a break coming up, so hopefully I can make it till then. I'm in love with a few of my classes, they are absolutely wonderful. I hope ya'll are doing great! Please feel free to email me... thekidwithasthma.
Cameron-Elizabeth
Showing posts with label High School. Show all posts
Showing posts with label High School. Show all posts
Thursday, November 20, 2014
Sunday, July 7, 2013
What Ive been up to!
Hey guys!
So these past few months have been kind of busy. And challenging to. I've been balancing school and homework and chores and everything else going on. I don't do well in school. Actually that's an understatement. I suck at everything related to school. Well other then science. I have had almost no free time. But, schools over! Praise the lord! Im so glad about that, no more waking up at 6 and having 6 hours of my day wasted on just sitting there doing nothing of importance to me. I have had a rough year school and life wise. My grades have gone down hill really fast, and I am not proud of that. But when your home sick half the time it gets kinda hard to keep up with your grades. Im not using that as and excuse, but I mean it is. Any way, I got my English final back. 95! I made a 95! How awesome is that!
My goal of playing softball this summer didn't happen. For a couple reasons. Asthma, money, and were supposed to be traveling a lot. So I mean I guess Im ok with that. I love softball and it kind of upsets me that Im not playing AGAIN! If I had played at school and then didn't this summer I would be fine. But I was completely counting on playing this summer. But whatever, Im looking forward to everything else going on this summer.
I finally got my bracelets after waiting 6 months. I'm doing another fundraiser for the Leukemia and Lymphoma society. If anyone would like to buy one, please email me. thekidwithasthma@gmail.com This charity is something I have been involved in for a few years and I love doing it. So, Ill post a picture of them later.
I also just got my ap gov textbook for school. I have actually started the assignment I have to do too! I'm so excited! I am not going to procrastinate like I normally do. But I do have to figure out which movie I'm going to watch. The list will be in my next post with the bracelets. But there's like 8 movies all related to presidents and I have to chose one and answer some questions about it. I also have 3 essays and notes. Oh and a online chapter quiz. I have already almost finished the notes.
I really want to get a laptop sometime soon, just cause I want my own computer and that way I can do school work on it and I can do it in my room. Speaking of my room, I don't know if I mentioned it already or not, but I got a new bed frame! It boosted my bed up like 2 feet which feels kinda weird. And my cat thinks its still the same height so he's ran into the corner of it a few times. That's really funny to see. I have been so happy lately. I have amassing friends who have been hanging out with me a lot lately and I absolutely love it! And I love my cousin randomly calling me up to take me to dinner and ice cream. I miss doing our little Camy and Jessy days. We have so much fun!
Feeling Incredible! :)
Cameron-Elizabeth
So these past few months have been kind of busy. And challenging to. I've been balancing school and homework and chores and everything else going on. I don't do well in school. Actually that's an understatement. I suck at everything related to school. Well other then science. I have had almost no free time. But, schools over! Praise the lord! Im so glad about that, no more waking up at 6 and having 6 hours of my day wasted on just sitting there doing nothing of importance to me. I have had a rough year school and life wise. My grades have gone down hill really fast, and I am not proud of that. But when your home sick half the time it gets kinda hard to keep up with your grades. Im not using that as and excuse, but I mean it is. Any way, I got my English final back. 95! I made a 95! How awesome is that!
My goal of playing softball this summer didn't happen. For a couple reasons. Asthma, money, and were supposed to be traveling a lot. So I mean I guess Im ok with that. I love softball and it kind of upsets me that Im not playing AGAIN! If I had played at school and then didn't this summer I would be fine. But I was completely counting on playing this summer. But whatever, Im looking forward to everything else going on this summer.
I finally got my bracelets after waiting 6 months. I'm doing another fundraiser for the Leukemia and Lymphoma society. If anyone would like to buy one, please email me. thekidwithasthma@gmail.com This charity is something I have been involved in for a few years and I love doing it. So, Ill post a picture of them later.
I also just got my ap gov textbook for school. I have actually started the assignment I have to do too! I'm so excited! I am not going to procrastinate like I normally do. But I do have to figure out which movie I'm going to watch. The list will be in my next post with the bracelets. But there's like 8 movies all related to presidents and I have to chose one and answer some questions about it. I also have 3 essays and notes. Oh and a online chapter quiz. I have already almost finished the notes.
I really want to get a laptop sometime soon, just cause I want my own computer and that way I can do school work on it and I can do it in my room. Speaking of my room, I don't know if I mentioned it already or not, but I got a new bed frame! It boosted my bed up like 2 feet which feels kinda weird. And my cat thinks its still the same height so he's ran into the corner of it a few times. That's really funny to see. I have been so happy lately. I have amassing friends who have been hanging out with me a lot lately and I absolutely love it! And I love my cousin randomly calling me up to take me to dinner and ice cream. I miss doing our little Camy and Jessy days. We have so much fun!
Feeling Incredible! :)
Cameron-Elizabeth
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Life
Maybe things aren't meant to be forever. We live, we die. What happens in between is what makes us who we are.
I finally was able to go back to school last week. I have been loaded with a ton of work. I got my report card wich is something I have been dreading since I found out my grades. I told my parents. My dad was very understanding. He waved it off and said that I can do better and he wants to see my homework and if I have a problem I can talk to him. My mom on the other hand. She was not so understanding. She also has been very nosey of late.
Softball......I have been practicing so much lately. To the point that I now have to take a week off of that for my shoulder. Something I have been battling for a few years. I really need to just chill with it and fix it before I hurt it more. The only problem is that means letting people do things for me. Not good at that. But I don't think I am going to do school ball. I really don't know any more.
School.........I start health tomorrow. Sex ed. Fun. Sarcasm there in case you didn't get that. My friend just got done with it and the first thing he told me, "The most awkward thing I have ever done, take sex ed sitting next to a pregnant girl." Thank the lord we don't have a pregnant girl in my class. Well I am not taking it. I have to sit in the library and do work.
Maybe things really are not meant to be forever. Maybe things are supposed to last for a specific already designated time. We live, we die. Its the cycle of life. What we do in between the beginning and end makes us, us. The things that change peoples minds.
Friends......I have some truly amazing friends. But I also have the friend that wants everyone to feel bad for her. She makes up stories to get attention. Like last year I was saying something about my dad being in the hospital. And she starts rattling off all these things that happened to her. Literally there was a list of them, her dog died, her dad was in the hospital, she was depressed, her cousin killed himself, she had to talk her friend out a suicide. I know that stuff sounds really bad. But when your picked up in a car with your dad and your dog, people wonder. Then the next week she slipped up and said something about how we all believed her. You don't lie about those things. And then this year, she has slept with one of my male friends who has a girlfriend. Sorry this whole paragraph is a rant.
Thank you to everyone who has read this!
Cameron-Elizabeth
I finally was able to go back to school last week. I have been loaded with a ton of work. I got my report card wich is something I have been dreading since I found out my grades. I told my parents. My dad was very understanding. He waved it off and said that I can do better and he wants to see my homework and if I have a problem I can talk to him. My mom on the other hand. She was not so understanding. She also has been very nosey of late.
Softball......I have been practicing so much lately. To the point that I now have to take a week off of that for my shoulder. Something I have been battling for a few years. I really need to just chill with it and fix it before I hurt it more. The only problem is that means letting people do things for me. Not good at that. But I don't think I am going to do school ball. I really don't know any more.
School.........I start health tomorrow. Sex ed. Fun. Sarcasm there in case you didn't get that. My friend just got done with it and the first thing he told me, "The most awkward thing I have ever done, take sex ed sitting next to a pregnant girl." Thank the lord we don't have a pregnant girl in my class. Well I am not taking it. I have to sit in the library and do work.
Maybe things really are not meant to be forever. Maybe things are supposed to last for a specific already designated time. We live, we die. Its the cycle of life. What we do in between the beginning and end makes us, us. The things that change peoples minds.
Friends......I have some truly amazing friends. But I also have the friend that wants everyone to feel bad for her. She makes up stories to get attention. Like last year I was saying something about my dad being in the hospital. And she starts rattling off all these things that happened to her. Literally there was a list of them, her dog died, her dad was in the hospital, she was depressed, her cousin killed himself, she had to talk her friend out a suicide. I know that stuff sounds really bad. But when your picked up in a car with your dad and your dog, people wonder. Then the next week she slipped up and said something about how we all believed her. You don't lie about those things. And then this year, she has slept with one of my male friends who has a girlfriend. Sorry this whole paragraph is a rant.
Thank you to everyone who has read this!
Cameron-Elizabeth
Saturday, January 19, 2013
More than Mistakes
You are more than the mistakes you've made.
There isn't much more to say, but there is a story behind it. Something I will never forget. I had done something that I shouldn't have. Anyway everyone was mad at me, this was like 3 or 4 years ago. That was the first time my dad or sister had ever yelled at me. I remember my sister a hour latter came over to me while I was in tears she said "I still love you, nothing will ever change that." My dad later that night came into my room and sat down and gave me this whole long speech about how what I did was wrong and that I should never do that again. But at the end of it he tells me, " Cam I love you. You are bigger than the mistakes you've made." This was one of those time I didn't feel like it.
That quote has become a reminder over the years that no matter what I do my dad and sister will always love me. I always know that no matter what I can talk to them.
I have made a big mistake that I don't know if I can fix. I got so far behind in all my classes. I mean I got caught up, but I don't think that was good enough. I very afraid of my report card. I don't know how anyone is going to respond. I can legitimately say this is the most afraid I have ever been of telling my dad something. Wish me luck.
Cameron-Elizabeth
There isn't much more to say, but there is a story behind it. Something I will never forget. I had done something that I shouldn't have. Anyway everyone was mad at me, this was like 3 or 4 years ago. That was the first time my dad or sister had ever yelled at me. I remember my sister a hour latter came over to me while I was in tears she said "I still love you, nothing will ever change that." My dad later that night came into my room and sat down and gave me this whole long speech about how what I did was wrong and that I should never do that again. But at the end of it he tells me, " Cam I love you. You are bigger than the mistakes you've made." This was one of those time I didn't feel like it.
That quote has become a reminder over the years that no matter what I do my dad and sister will always love me. I always know that no matter what I can talk to them.
I have made a big mistake that I don't know if I can fix. I got so far behind in all my classes. I mean I got caught up, but I don't think that was good enough. I very afraid of my report card. I don't know how anyone is going to respond. I can legitimately say this is the most afraid I have ever been of telling my dad something. Wish me luck.
Cameron-Elizabeth
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
The toughest opponent
At the start of each day I remind myself my toughest opponent is in the mirror. Yes as weird as that sounds it is true. Your biggest opponent is you. When you finally accept that and know it then you can conquer it. But until you realize the only opponent you have to beat is you, you wont be as success full. This is on my bathroom mirror...... Which leads me to my next thing. I saw someone do a thing about what they have on there wall. Well I will tell you one of my walls, in my room of course:
Ryan Lochte said the quote I mentioned above, I happen to adore him as well. I saw him win almost all of his races at the Olympics last year. So let me leave you with a question...... Who is your favorite athlete?
Cameron-Elizabeth
- High School Musical Pendent- My best friends mom bought it for me at Disney on Ice
- Carolina Hurricanes Pendent- My dad bought this for me when we went to the final play off game before they won the Stanley Cup in 2006
- My Middle school Pendent- Came with the PTA sign up sheet
- A Ceramic Butterfly and Dragonfly- I happened to actually paint both of those, cool right
- A Tutu- This is the first tutu I wore in a recital
- My Old Dance Shirt- The shirt from the dance place I used to go to
- Letter C- Made of cardboard with these pretty purple and pink flowers
Ryan Lochte said the quote I mentioned above, I happen to adore him as well. I saw him win almost all of his races at the Olympics last year. So let me leave you with a question...... Who is your favorite athlete?
Cameron-Elizabeth
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