Hey guys!
So these past few months have been kind of busy. And challenging to. I've been balancing school and homework and chores and everything else going on. I don't do well in school. Actually that's an understatement. I suck at everything related to school. Well other then science. I have had almost no free time. But, schools over! Praise the lord! Im so glad about that, no more waking up at 6 and having 6 hours of my day wasted on just sitting there doing nothing of importance to me. I have had a rough year school and life wise. My grades have gone down hill really fast, and I am not proud of that. But when your home sick half the time it gets kinda hard to keep up with your grades. Im not using that as and excuse, but I mean it is. Any way, I got my English final back. 95! I made a 95! How awesome is that!
My goal of playing softball this summer didn't happen. For a couple reasons. Asthma, money, and were supposed to be traveling a lot. So I mean I guess Im ok with that. I love softball and it kind of upsets me that Im not playing AGAIN! If I had played at school and then didn't this summer I would be fine. But I was completely counting on playing this summer. But whatever, Im looking forward to everything else going on this summer.
I finally got my bracelets after waiting 6 months. I'm doing another fundraiser for the Leukemia and Lymphoma society. If anyone would like to buy one, please email me. thekidwithasthma@gmail.com This charity is something I have been involved in for a few years and I love doing it. So, Ill post a picture of them later.
I also just got my ap gov textbook for school. I have actually started the assignment I have to do too! I'm so excited! I am not going to procrastinate like I normally do. But I do have to figure out which movie I'm going to watch. The list will be in my next post with the bracelets. But there's like 8 movies all related to presidents and I have to chose one and answer some questions about it. I also have 3 essays and notes. Oh and a online chapter quiz. I have already almost finished the notes.
I really want to get a laptop sometime soon, just cause I want my own computer and that way I can do school work on it and I can do it in my room. Speaking of my room, I don't know if I mentioned it already or not, but I got a new bed frame! It boosted my bed up like 2 feet which feels kinda weird. And my cat thinks its still the same height so he's ran into the corner of it a few times. That's really funny to see. I have been so happy lately. I have amassing friends who have been hanging out with me a lot lately and I absolutely love it! And I love my cousin randomly calling me up to take me to dinner and ice cream. I miss doing our little Camy and Jessy days. We have so much fun!
Feeling Incredible! :)
Cameron-Elizabeth
Showing posts with label Softball. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Softball. Show all posts
Sunday, July 7, 2013
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Life
Maybe things aren't meant to be forever. We live, we die. What happens in between is what makes us who we are.
I finally was able to go back to school last week. I have been loaded with a ton of work. I got my report card wich is something I have been dreading since I found out my grades. I told my parents. My dad was very understanding. He waved it off and said that I can do better and he wants to see my homework and if I have a problem I can talk to him. My mom on the other hand. She was not so understanding. She also has been very nosey of late.
Softball......I have been practicing so much lately. To the point that I now have to take a week off of that for my shoulder. Something I have been battling for a few years. I really need to just chill with it and fix it before I hurt it more. The only problem is that means letting people do things for me. Not good at that. But I don't think I am going to do school ball. I really don't know any more.
School.........I start health tomorrow. Sex ed. Fun. Sarcasm there in case you didn't get that. My friend just got done with it and the first thing he told me, "The most awkward thing I have ever done, take sex ed sitting next to a pregnant girl." Thank the lord we don't have a pregnant girl in my class. Well I am not taking it. I have to sit in the library and do work.
Maybe things really are not meant to be forever. Maybe things are supposed to last for a specific already designated time. We live, we die. Its the cycle of life. What we do in between the beginning and end makes us, us. The things that change peoples minds.
Friends......I have some truly amazing friends. But I also have the friend that wants everyone to feel bad for her. She makes up stories to get attention. Like last year I was saying something about my dad being in the hospital. And she starts rattling off all these things that happened to her. Literally there was a list of them, her dog died, her dad was in the hospital, she was depressed, her cousin killed himself, she had to talk her friend out a suicide. I know that stuff sounds really bad. But when your picked up in a car with your dad and your dog, people wonder. Then the next week she slipped up and said something about how we all believed her. You don't lie about those things. And then this year, she has slept with one of my male friends who has a girlfriend. Sorry this whole paragraph is a rant.
Thank you to everyone who has read this!
Cameron-Elizabeth
I finally was able to go back to school last week. I have been loaded with a ton of work. I got my report card wich is something I have been dreading since I found out my grades. I told my parents. My dad was very understanding. He waved it off and said that I can do better and he wants to see my homework and if I have a problem I can talk to him. My mom on the other hand. She was not so understanding. She also has been very nosey of late.
Softball......I have been practicing so much lately. To the point that I now have to take a week off of that for my shoulder. Something I have been battling for a few years. I really need to just chill with it and fix it before I hurt it more. The only problem is that means letting people do things for me. Not good at that. But I don't think I am going to do school ball. I really don't know any more.
School.........I start health tomorrow. Sex ed. Fun. Sarcasm there in case you didn't get that. My friend just got done with it and the first thing he told me, "The most awkward thing I have ever done, take sex ed sitting next to a pregnant girl." Thank the lord we don't have a pregnant girl in my class. Well I am not taking it. I have to sit in the library and do work.
Maybe things really are not meant to be forever. Maybe things are supposed to last for a specific already designated time. We live, we die. Its the cycle of life. What we do in between the beginning and end makes us, us. The things that change peoples minds.
Friends......I have some truly amazing friends. But I also have the friend that wants everyone to feel bad for her. She makes up stories to get attention. Like last year I was saying something about my dad being in the hospital. And she starts rattling off all these things that happened to her. Literally there was a list of them, her dog died, her dad was in the hospital, she was depressed, her cousin killed himself, she had to talk her friend out a suicide. I know that stuff sounds really bad. But when your picked up in a car with your dad and your dog, people wonder. Then the next week she slipped up and said something about how we all believed her. You don't lie about those things. And then this year, she has slept with one of my male friends who has a girlfriend. Sorry this whole paragraph is a rant.
Thank you to everyone who has read this!
Cameron-Elizabeth
Friday, February 8, 2013
My goal
Color the world in your own colors. Make it your own. Scribble through the bad times and slowly color the good memories. Don't forget to use your favorite colors. Try to leave the ugly ones behind.
I am done. Done trying to impress people. I am done worrying what others think of me. I will admit I am concerned about my looks. I am done with caring about the dirty looks. Done.
I worry about things I shouldn't. I am not old enough to worry about these things. But its hard when you are constantly being told no, we don't have the money. But then your little sister gets to do things she wants. The one thing I want to do so incredibly bad is play softball. Yes there is a school team. That is not what I mean. I want to play travel ball. I want that sense of everyone caring. Not the oh I got stuck with you guys thing.
So I was asked the other day what my goals are. This is how the conversation went.
"So, Cam. What are your goals."
"At school or all the time?"
"All the time"
"Physical or mental or both"
"Both"
"Well, physically I want to be able to do things with out carrying my inhaler around. I don't want to have to carry it EVERYWHERE."
That is a simple goal I want to achieve. Is it realistic. Probably not anytime soon, but long term maybe. I have gotten to the point where walking upstairs has become a challenge. Not a challenge like I cant. But I can make it up them and can barley breath. Now my friend "S" has told me that even she has problems with stairs. Not because she cant breath, but because of her hip. I feel like I hold them back. I have amassing friends who specifically wont do what they want to because they want to make sure I have a friend with me. I feel like its my fault there giving up things. It is. I know it is. I feel like a 3rd wheel. I feel like they would be able to do whatever they wanted if I wasn't there. But at the same time, I feel like we have a ton of fun together.
Another goal of mine that is physical I shared in my Bucket List post. I want to do the London marathon.
A) I don't live in London
B) I can not physically do it right not
Cameron-Elizabeth
I am done. Done trying to impress people. I am done worrying what others think of me. I will admit I am concerned about my looks. I am done with caring about the dirty looks. Done.
I worry about things I shouldn't. I am not old enough to worry about these things. But its hard when you are constantly being told no, we don't have the money. But then your little sister gets to do things she wants. The one thing I want to do so incredibly bad is play softball. Yes there is a school team. That is not what I mean. I want to play travel ball. I want that sense of everyone caring. Not the oh I got stuck with you guys thing.
So I was asked the other day what my goals are. This is how the conversation went.
"So, Cam. What are your goals."
"At school or all the time?"
"All the time"
"Physical or mental or both"
"Both"
"Well, physically I want to be able to do things with out carrying my inhaler around. I don't want to have to carry it EVERYWHERE."
That is a simple goal I want to achieve. Is it realistic. Probably not anytime soon, but long term maybe. I have gotten to the point where walking upstairs has become a challenge. Not a challenge like I cant. But I can make it up them and can barley breath. Now my friend "S" has told me that even she has problems with stairs. Not because she cant breath, but because of her hip. I feel like I hold them back. I have amassing friends who specifically wont do what they want to because they want to make sure I have a friend with me. I feel like its my fault there giving up things. It is. I know it is. I feel like a 3rd wheel. I feel like they would be able to do whatever they wanted if I wasn't there. But at the same time, I feel like we have a ton of fun together.
Another goal of mine that is physical I shared in my Bucket List post. I want to do the London marathon.
A) I don't live in London
B) I can not physically do it right not
Well I have added to that. I want to do it with out my inhaler. The day I can throw my inhaler aside and go out for a jog will be the happiest day of my life. Even happier then getting married. I haven't been able to go for a "real" jog in over a year. I can go on walks and things, but a "real" jog is out of the question. What I mean by "real" is a good mile to two. I can do super short sprints, not jogs.
Cameron-Elizabeth
Monday, February 4, 2013
Plan C
Sometimes it is easier to say I don't care then explain all the reasons you do
I have a bad habit of that. I don't want to sit down and explain why I care. There are things I care about that I don't know why I do, I just do. Saying I don't and whatever are bad habits of mine. They don't fix anything. If they do anything its make it worse. I just don't know how to tell someone that I do care. I don't want to leave, I don't want you to leave, I want everything to stay the same. I want everything to go back to how it was when I was 7, perfect. I want my dad to run and hug me everyday. I want me brother to pick me up and spin around. I want my mom to come home a 5:30 so we can eat what my dad cooked. I want my dad to coach my softball team, I want him to run a mile with me everyday. I want to be OK.
Recently I have been thinking. About a lot. What would life be like if my parents didn't fight. What would life be like if my sister and I didn't fight. What if my dad never got sick. What would happen if something happened to my parents. What would happen if something happened to me. Where would we go. Who would take us.
The last few questions I have talked to my parents about. My sister and I are supposed to be shipped to some old friends of my parents. People I have never met. People who are strong Catholics and don't allow there daughter to wear shorts. That is not where I want to go. You need a back up plan for kids. I know that's not what parents want to think about. But there is that what if. I do not want to be shipped to those weird people. Think about how awkward it would be.......
There is another plan c. We have discussed it. My sister and I like it. There are a few kinks in the plan though. Some that really need worked out.
Cameron-Elizabeth
I have a bad habit of that. I don't want to sit down and explain why I care. There are things I care about that I don't know why I do, I just do. Saying I don't and whatever are bad habits of mine. They don't fix anything. If they do anything its make it worse. I just don't know how to tell someone that I do care. I don't want to leave, I don't want you to leave, I want everything to stay the same. I want everything to go back to how it was when I was 7, perfect. I want my dad to run and hug me everyday. I want me brother to pick me up and spin around. I want my mom to come home a 5:30 so we can eat what my dad cooked. I want my dad to coach my softball team, I want him to run a mile with me everyday. I want to be OK.
Recently I have been thinking. About a lot. What would life be like if my parents didn't fight. What would life be like if my sister and I didn't fight. What if my dad never got sick. What would happen if something happened to my parents. What would happen if something happened to me. Where would we go. Who would take us.
The last few questions I have talked to my parents about. My sister and I are supposed to be shipped to some old friends of my parents. People I have never met. People who are strong Catholics and don't allow there daughter to wear shorts. That is not where I want to go. You need a back up plan for kids. I know that's not what parents want to think about. But there is that what if. I do not want to be shipped to those weird people. Think about how awkward it would be.......
There is another plan c. We have discussed it. My sister and I like it. There are a few kinks in the plan though. Some that really need worked out.
Cameron-Elizabeth
Sunday, January 13, 2013
How much Influence do your parents have?
So my English teacher has these journal prompts that I absolutely love, so I will be doing alot of them as posts.
How much influence do your parents have?
My parents have a huge deal of influence on me. Good example here. My dad loves cars. When I was like 3 or 4 my dad took me outside to help him. So began my love affair with cars. (Song quote there) Yea, my parents have a ton of influence on me. I think my softball obsession came from him. For my 5th birthday my dad bought me my first bat. I had gone to every softball game he played in. I was there little cheerleader. So when he couldn't play anymore he decided to coach my team. I though it was the coolest thing ever....... my dad the coach! Another really good example, my love of photography. My dad used to take these amazing photos and he would always tell me that someday he wanted one of his photos published. So I am working on becoming that good. My mom has an example to, she had an obsession with cooking so I became a fairly good cook. That's another thing I continue to work on.
So how much influence do/did your parents have on you?
Cameron-Elizabeth
How much influence do your parents have?
My parents have a huge deal of influence on me. Good example here. My dad loves cars. When I was like 3 or 4 my dad took me outside to help him. So began my love affair with cars. (Song quote there) Yea, my parents have a ton of influence on me. I think my softball obsession came from him. For my 5th birthday my dad bought me my first bat. I had gone to every softball game he played in. I was there little cheerleader. So when he couldn't play anymore he decided to coach my team. I though it was the coolest thing ever....... my dad the coach! Another really good example, my love of photography. My dad used to take these amazing photos and he would always tell me that someday he wanted one of his photos published. So I am working on becoming that good. My mom has an example to, she had an obsession with cooking so I became a fairly good cook. That's another thing I continue to work on.
So how much influence do/did your parents have on you?
Cameron-Elizabeth
Thursday, December 20, 2012
Bucket list
Hey!
This is my bucket list!
Cameron-Elizabeth
This is my bucket list!
- Learn to play an instrument - Done! I play the viola
- Run the London marathon
- Go to the Olympics - I wanted to go for softball, but that is no longer a Olympic sport
- Go mountion biking - I have the bike I just have to go
- Go tubing and get flipped - Done! It felt amazing.
- Learn to ride a horse - Done! I love horses and want to enter in competitions now
- Get my black belt - Done! I have my black belt in Tea Kwon Do
- Learn to dance - Done! That one is very vague, but I can do ballet
- Get scuba certified - I love the water and haven't yet accomplished this, I want to find a new creature in the Atlantic ocean
- Go fire walking - This is when you walk over hot stones or a bed of embers
- Go rock climbing - I have gone indoor rock climbing but not yet real rock climbing
- Swim with dolphins - I have seen dolphins, not yet ridden one, but will
- Adopt a pet from a shelter - The only thing stopping me is the fact im allergic to dogs
- Go whale watching - Whales are amazing animals
- Go hunting - Working on it, this is the season for duck hunting. Who knows, maybe
- See the wonders of the world - I have not seen any of them
- Go to the Ripley's Aquarium - Hoping to very soon
- Learn to play chess - Done! I learned over the summer and played with my best friend "Em"
- Restore a car - Done! I haven't fully restored a car, but I'm in the middle of working on one with my dad
- Get married - I want to get married to the most wonderfull man and have a wonderfull wedding on the beach
- Have kids - I have already started picking out names
Cameron-Elizabeth
Thursday, December 13, 2012
Last
Hola!
I am always that kid over there. I am never the one that gets chosen 1st for sports. Try last. Yes, last. I understand why, its one of those judging a book by the cover things. I don't look like an athletic person. I don't consider myself super athletic. I cant run super fast, which is whatmost all sports require. But I am good at the technical aspect of it. I can hit a softball far, throw far, and steal. I am good at softball. When I played soccer I wasn't half bad either. Yea the running part was bad, but I always played defense or gaol. Nothing ever got passed me. People judge though, which is what your parents always taught you not to do. I don't like being picked last, it sucks. My brother always tells me, its nothing don't worry about it. But for some strange reason I am obsessed with it. I get the whole competitive thing, but if you don't give someone a chance how will you know.
When my softball team would choose teams for a scrimmage it was never she doesn't look like she can do anything lets not choose her. It was always, well Cameron played good in the last game let me choose her first. It was never about impressions. When there was a new girl she was always the first one chosen. For the reason of not making her feel lonely, or excluded. Which is exactly what my gym class does not do. They don't care if someone feels left out. I mean my gym teacher makes sure everyone gets a turn, but that's not the point. Whats gonna happen when he leaves? After winter break when for the 2nd time in 2 years my teacher leaves. I get the most amazing teachers, who mean alot and actually care. After winter break when we have a new teacher, are they gonna be the same way? Are they going to make sure everyone gets a turn? Or are they going to let those lonely last picked kids stand over in the cornor and do nothing? Please do tell me! I know this is so weird, but I don't want a new teacher. I don't want to get a teacher who doesn't care. I have had him for only the last few months. But a few months can make a difference in someones like. I'm not saying hes changed my life, or done anything like that. But he does know what has happened. I don't want to have to explain my family, explain why I cant run a mile under a given time. I don't want to get stuck with another teacher who feels they have to lie. I don't want someone who doesn't care. I have been given that whole long lecture about how everyone isn't always going to like me or care about me. I understand that. I also understand some teachers only care because there payed to. But I have been blessed with teachers who actually care.
Cameron-Elizabeth
I am always that kid over there. I am never the one that gets chosen 1st for sports. Try last. Yes, last. I understand why, its one of those judging a book by the cover things. I don't look like an athletic person. I don't consider myself super athletic. I cant run super fast, which is what
When my softball team would choose teams for a scrimmage it was never she doesn't look like she can do anything lets not choose her. It was always, well Cameron played good in the last game let me choose her first. It was never about impressions. When there was a new girl she was always the first one chosen. For the reason of not making her feel lonely, or excluded. Which is exactly what my gym class does not do. They don't care if someone feels left out. I mean my gym teacher makes sure everyone gets a turn, but that's not the point. Whats gonna happen when he leaves? After winter break when for the 2nd time in 2 years my teacher leaves. I get the most amazing teachers, who mean alot and actually care. After winter break when we have a new teacher, are they gonna be the same way? Are they going to make sure everyone gets a turn? Or are they going to let those lonely last picked kids stand over in the cornor and do nothing? Please do tell me! I know this is so weird, but I don't want a new teacher. I don't want to get a teacher who doesn't care. I have had him for only the last few months. But a few months can make a difference in someones like. I'm not saying hes changed my life, or done anything like that. But he does know what has happened. I don't want to have to explain my family, explain why I cant run a mile under a given time. I don't want to get stuck with another teacher who feels they have to lie. I don't want someone who doesn't care. I have been given that whole long lecture about how everyone isn't always going to like me or care about me. I understand that. I also understand some teachers only care because there payed to. But I have been blessed with teachers who actually care.
Cameron-Elizabeth
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