Life

Maybe things aren't meant to be forever. We live, we die. What happens in between is what makes us who we are.

I finally was able to go back to school last week. I have been loaded with a ton of work. I got my report card wich is something I have been dreading since I found out my grades. I told my parents. My dad was very understanding. He waved it off and said that I can do better and he wants to see my homework and if I have a problem I can talk to him. My mom on the other hand. She was not so understanding. She also has been very nosey of late.

Softball......I have been practicing so much lately. To the point that I now have to take a week off of that for my shoulder. Something I have been battling for a few years. I really need to just chill with it and fix it before I hurt it more. The only problem is that means letting people do things for me. Not good at that. But I don't think I am going to do school ball. I really don't know any more.

School.........I start health tomorrow. Sex ed. Fun. Sarcasm there in case you didn't get that. My friend just got done with it and the first thing he told me, "The most awkward thing I have ever done, take sex ed sitting next to a pregnant girl." Thank the lord we don't have a pregnant girl in my class. Well I am not taking it. I have to sit in the library and do work.

Maybe things really are not meant to be forever. Maybe things are supposed to last for a specific already designated time. We live, we die. Its the cycle of life. What we do in between the beginning and end makes us, us. The things that change peoples minds.

Friends......I have some truly amazing friends. But I also have the friend that wants everyone to feel bad for her. She makes up stories to get attention. Like last year I was saying something about my dad being in the hospital. And she starts rattling off all these things that happened to her. Literally there was a list of them, her dog died, her dad was in the hospital, she was depressed, her cousin killed himself, she had to talk her friend out a suicide. I know that stuff sounds really bad. But when your picked up in a car with your dad and your dog, people wonder. Then the next week she slipped up and said something about how we all believed her. You don't lie about those things. And then this year, she has slept with one of my male friends who has a girlfriend. Sorry this whole paragraph is a rant.

Thank you to everyone who has read this!

Cameron-Elizabeth

Just dont say anything

Hello!

There are somethings people have said to me about asthma that really just piss me off. Let me tell you a few things.

1. You're just faking- What the hell? Why would I fake not being able to breath. I had one kid tell me in 6th grade that I was faking to get out of gym. I actually like gym, so why would I try to get out of it? That is so aggravating
2. If you took care of yourself it would be under control- Again, why? Do you have Asthma? Do you know what its like? Granted its not this way for everyone, some people have it totally under control. Well I don't. I have not been able to get it under control in years. And I do try to take care of myself
3. Well you can control it- Ok, no I cant. I have told people this. I can not control mine. On any given day of any given month I could have a full blown attack.
4. Asthma is all in your head- Yes someone told me this. For the longest time when I was little I believed this. I thought if I sat down and told my self "your fine" I would be ok. That didn't work
5. I don't believe in Asthma- How can you not believe in Asthma? This isn't the tooth fairy or the Easter bunny. This is a real medical condition.
6. You don't really need your inhaler- Yes a teacher told me this. On field day I was not allowed to go back to our classroom, which wasn't even a class room it was a trailer, to get my inhaler. So later that night I was rushed to our local urgent care. Yea maybe if I would have gotten my inhaler we could have prevented that visit
7. Do you still have it?- I really don't care for this one. I know some kids grow out of it, but I haven't and most likely wont.
8. I'm sorry- Why would you be? I have herd this to many times. I don't want people being sorry for me. I am not a charity case.
9. You should be glad you don't have to participate in (gym, P.E., practice)- I am not glad. I enjoy those things.

But there are some good quotes I have found about it. Asthma doesn't seem to bother me any more unless I'm around cigars or dogs. The thing that would bother me most would be a dog smoking a cigar. I think this is so funny. Not everyone is like that. Most people are not. I have many friends that understand. That understand it is hard. But if your gonna make a comment about MY Asthma, think. I know I should take the opportunity to educate people. I am just not that way, I wish I was. There are those few people I have talked to about it who make those comments. I made a friend that way. I just don't want to deal with people. I am not able to do that, my brother is better at that. There will always be those people. I'm not trying to be mean but really I am not good at it. Sorry about the anger in this post.

Cameron-Elizabeth